Photo via Raphael Vicenzi
The most exciting time of the year is upon us again. Have you guys prepped for the holidays yet? I am currently sitting beside my holiday tree while I’m bingewatching holiday DIYs on Youtube and needlessly pinning holiday ideas in Pinterest. Calm and chill as the season, but deep inside I swear I couldn’t contain my childish excitement for Christmas.
Truth is, my family has never been into the holidays as much as this year, after such a long time. I always hated this because I’m a huge Christmas person. Christmas to me meant trees, decor, shopping, gift wrapping and parties. However, as a new family in an unfamiliar city, I could understand how the holidays weren’t really a priority. My brother and I had to get jobs and we needed to afford a place to stay. We simply had to make ends meet and year after year, it has been quite a struggle.
It has been almost a decade since I saw myself decorating a Christmas tree. This time, I bought a tree as a gift to myself. It actually made me tear up a bit. Yes, a Christmas tree made me cry, don’t judge. After furnishing my tree, I realized that somehow things are starting to pick up. Somehow, after all the shit that happened this year, I’m really fortunate and grateful that I still had enough blessings to splurge on Christmas decor. It was a great feeling to have knowing that somehow, life is moving in a good direction. As lost, confused and paralyzed as I sometimes feel, it’s great to have these little reminders of how far I’ve come.
Fresh start, new beginnings, opportunities for reinvention, renewal and rebirth ♥ Finding love in a hopeless place ♥ Manifesting abundance and reverberating gratitude ♥ Unlimited blessings, unlimited chances to give back ♥ Getting lost and finding a new direction ♥ Guilt-free moving on ♥ Maturity, growth, clarity and wisdom ♥ Health ♥ Intermittent diet and home workouts ♥ Blogilates and yoga. ♥ Old friends, new friends, and having the guts to create meaningful conversations with strangers ♥ Startups and unlimited business ideas ♥ Artsy hobbies to kill boredom and make money ♥ A red and silver Christmas tree, and having extra mulah to actually decorate for Christmas. Seriously. Having a well decorated space for the holidays is the greatest feeling after years and years of sad boring Christmasses. ♥ Pinterest. Thank God for Pinterest ♥ Occasional partying. Yes, I’ve started going out again. This time, I’m just out to have a great time. At least once in 2-3 months just to kill boredom. I’m no longer trying to kill myself or test my luck with recklessness. ♥ Silver spray paint. Huffing it. Just kidding. I love piling up old stuff to spray paint so I could re-use them.
“You can’t go back and change the beginning,
but you can start where you are
and change the ending.”